12/25

Merry Christmas to my fellow readers! Tis the season to remember everything that has been done for us and to appreciate those who continue to be with us everyday. It’s so easy to get wrapped up in the gifts and materialist view of Christmas so today just step back and look at everything that truly matters. Last Christmas my family wasn’t in the best financial state due to the recession  but this year we are completely back on our feet and I am beyond grateful for that. Today I thank God for everything he has done for me and continues to do for me everyday. Without you I am nothing. I hope everybody has a blessed day and enjoys this time with their family. 

Happy Holidays ! 

B. 

Flatline

It's not fair that you consume my mind 

Leaving my ability to think about anyone else behind 

Neglecting common sense, you're leaving me blind 

& every other man that comes around, always gets declined 

I just want to go back, rewind 

Go back to the days when my heart wasn't so confined. 

But catering to my man is how my heart is designed 

But you're not my man at all, you said you're not the kind 

Just someone whose heart I can't seem to find. 

Couple of forevers.

How do I make you fall in love with me ?

Do I need long hair, a big ass, & is it sex that I need to guarantee ?

Do I have to compromise myself

Just to make sure you're not looking at anyone else ?

Or do I have to completely surrender 

So my independence I'll no longer remember ? 

How do I make you fall in love with me & not just what you see ? 

If I wore sweat pants w/ my hair tied would you look at me the same ?

Or do I have to wear the things that would make my family ashamed ?

I wanna make you fall in love with me because I know everything that we could be 

& I know your satisfaction will always be guaranteed 

But I don't want to untie the ties that hold me together 

I'm just tryna be a couple of forevers. 

All over the place

I’ve been trying to write something for yall for a couple weeks now

But to get my thoughts to come across in words, I forgot how.

So what’s been up with me?

I’m just busy being that girl that nobody wants to be

Trying to get the attention from him

Without doing things that would make me sin

I can’t even front and say there’s only one

I’ve only been single for some months,

I’m just tryna have some fun

But when it comes to us

There’s some things that I want to discuss

Do we have a future in tomorrow

Or are all my dreams just borrowed?

When I lay my head on your chest,

Do you think that we connect?

And when our lips meet

Does it make you want to fall to your feet?

I wish it was a name I could drop

But I honestly don’t even know who I’m talking about

You or you?

I promise soon, I'll figure out who.

My thoughts have been all over the place

And it’s my words that can’t seem to find their place.

If there was something on my mind,

I used to be able to write like there was no time

I’m not sure what’s wrong with me

But I hope I can bounce back because this has never been ....

B.