Happy Place

Lately I just haven't been feeling like myself 

& now it seems like it's taking a toll on my health 

All I do is eat & sleep 

I get so depressed that I can't even balance on two feet. 

I pray that it's all in my head

That one of these days I'll bounce back & get tf up out of bed 

But my bed is my happy place 

When I'm sleep, nothing matters 

Because it's just me in my space 

I don't have to worry about the insecurities that reality will bring 

....To be honest all I really need is my bed & a drink. 

When I'm on that feel good 

Baby the world is like it should & I'm no longer misunderstood. 

Some people call it dependent

But I call it an instant ... 

But everyday I wake up to find that much hasn't changed from the night before 

So I just go back to bed saying maybe just a couple hours more. 

B.

Sunshine

I've always got sunshine on a cloudy day 

Because day in & day out, I can trust you, I know you would never betray.

Being in your arms is such an indescribable feeling

& after everything I've been through, your kiss is like emotional healing. 

In such a short time you've become my bestfriend, 

& I'm beyond blessed to be able to also call you my boyfriend. 

You do more for me then these lames EVER did.

& You're the reason why with him, god kept telling me to call it quits. 

There are times when I can be a straight bitch to you, 

& times when I'll say anything to argue; 

But you never sweat the little things

You’re ready for whatever, no matter what dramatics I may bring.

Everyday you prove your loyalty by the little things you do

& I love when it’s just us two, it’s like were our own little crew. 

It’s like gravity can take us wherever, as long as we remain together. 

And I know as long as we’re together, 

I'll never have to worry about the cold weather

Because I've always got sunshine on a cloudy day, 

& everybody knows who makes me feel this way 

B. 

2/14

Valentines day is not a made up holiday that men should shy away from. It’s a day that should be used to make your significant other feel as special as possible. The people that say everyday should be valentines day obviously don’t go through the everyday trials and tribulations just to get to the next day. This is one day out of every year that is designated to make her smile. To make her feel on top of the world. To make her feel like no other girl in the world matters. Some girls are simple, they just want to be noticed on Valentines day. Boys who say they “don’t celebrate Valentines day” are selfish. They let their girl see how much other men go all out to make their girl smile. And if she acts like she doesn’t care, she’s lying. No girl wants to watch her best friend's man go above and beyond for them while she sits there with nothing. And before y’all jump on my back, it’s never about the material things. It’s about being noticed and cared about. Men are too wrapped up in the stuff that they shouldn’t have to do for their girl. It’s not about you; this day is never about you. For one day, make it about her. 

I target this at men because most women, will always do for her man, even if he doesn't do for her. 

B. 

Nothing But Air

I can't explain you & I 

I watch you when you sleep 

But I feel nothing

It's an emptiness I can't really begin to try to describe. 

When you hold me, I don't get the butterflies that should be taking over my stomach.  

I get hot with annoyance, aggravation, & irritation. 

There was a time when all I longed for was you but since things have changed. 

Because even though you're the only man in my life, the only man who consumes my mind, 

I still don't feel a thing. 

I don't even feel like we can overcome the trails & tribulations that a relationship brings. 

There are even some nights that I wish I was laying elsewhere. 

I want to love you, I want to feel you
but when I kiss you .. 

I don't feel nothing but air. 

B. 

Footprints

When I think about you, nothing makes sense

& when I’m around you, I try to control myself but I never have the strength. 

I want you every minute of everyday 

but there’s nothing I can do to make you stay

see I want you to myself and nobody else 

but you’re the type to be surrounded by an entourage of females

usually thats not my type 

but at night, you’re the only one who holds me just right

the only one who makes me feel on top of the world 

who makes me wanna keep my lashes and my hair curled 

you touch me and my heart spins

Sometimes I wish these feelings for you didn’t begin 

but in my dreams, on my heart you left footprints

& hand and hand it was just me & my prince 

Wrote this awhile ago .. Just felt like posting something.

B. 

Love

Love is patient, love is kind

Like the way you accept my flaws & respect my grind 

It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud

You love me as I am & you’re never afraid to say it out loud 

It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs 

You know just how to handle me, nothing with us is ever prolonged 

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth 

I understood your loyalty the moment we were introduced 

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves 

I never have to question your love and that is beyond dope 

Love never fails 

I promise our love will always prevail. 

B. 

They Don't Know

They don’t know about you and I 

we have this connection thats hard to even deny

& when you put it on me, boy you make me want to touch the sky 

when i first met you I was shy 

i didn’t want to come off as easy 

but baby you had me feeling queasy 

and as the butterflies were flying ..

I was out here lying .. 

I didn’t want them to know the truth 

The emotion between us, they had no proof 

They don’t know 

They don’t know that behind closed doors our love already started to grow 

Your girl and my man, they have no clue 

Our love holds ties that they can’t possibly undo 

I used to want you on some selfish shit 

But this thing we have turns me on, I have to admit 

As long as we keep this between me & you

nobody will have a clue. 

B.